Post by august on Sept 14, 2010 22:10:03 GMT -7
Leonard Devon Kinnley
"Your eyes are poor. You're blind. You see, no beauty could have come from me. I'm a waste of breath, of space, of time."
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I AM BEYOND GOD
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Full Name: Leonard Devon Kinnley
Nickname(s): Leo
Gender: XY [Male]
Age: Fifteen
Birthdate: August 15, 1995
Sexuality: Heterosexual
Reincarnate: Yes
I am: Judas Iscariot
Played By: Jason Dolley
Grade: Freshman
Boarding: Yes
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OUR SHINING FUTURE
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Height: 5’8
Weight: 149
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Blonde
Build: Average
Scars: A few faint ones around his neck. They’re only noticeable if someone points it out.
Piercings/Tattoos: None.
Personal Style: Leonard’s style is as simple as possible. He hates to stick out and keeps to darker or monotoned shades and simple patterns. His clothes fit him well, maybe a little snug. He wears converse because everyone else does. He keeps away from rebellious clothing, and sticks closer to bland clothing like white button ups and ties. His clothes are too dark to be considered preppy, and too formal to be considered gothic or punk. He keeps his hair brushed and tries to look as clean as possible. He keeps away from jewelry, believing it's for woman. Leo tries to keep his clothes as old-fashioned as possible without drawing odd looks. He likes vests. He doesn't like today's "fashion".
Appearance: Leo’s hair is a warm honey blonde. He keeps the length to around his ears, and it just flairs out on it’s own. His eyes are blue. He's full of thoughts and his eyes reflect that. They lean toward a darker shade, and stand out against his light skin. He's tall for his age, but slouches horribly. He's got an average build, with little muscle. Leo keeps a pen tucked behind his left ear at all times. It makes his left ear stick out and gives him a goofy, lop-sided look. He always makes sure to eat and sleep so he looks just like the other kids his age. Leonard smiles and laughs with other kids. He looks genuinely happy. One look at Leo and the only thing that comes to mind is "average", but that's exactly what he wants.
HOPE AND HORROR
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Likes: Privacy, Tradition, Being alone, Fruit/Fruit juice, Creativity, Sweets, Sunny days, Pens, Repetitive noises, Books
Dislikes: Dirty things, Loud noises, Most animals, The smell of graphite, Sour stuff, The dark, Children, Pastel colors, The circus,
Dreams: Of being accepted
Fears: God, His secret getting out, Getting what he deserves
Habits/Hobbies: Eyebrow twitches, Tapping his finger against his thigh when nervous, reading, writing, occasionally painting, but he doesn't think he's any good.
Secret(s): He's Judas Iscariot, He hates himself, A tad of a masochist, Secret sweet tooth.
Personality: Leonard is disgusted with himself, and with what he had done. He's convinced himself that no one would love someone like him. He feels like an old man because of all the lives he's lived. He struggles with guilt, and feels tormented. He use to hear God, and actually enjoyed His voice, but now he only hears silence and it scares him. He's convinced the moment he stops reincarnating, he'll go straight to Hell. Leonard watches RSOR from a distance, and occasionally plays with the idea of joining. Leo would love to be a part of a group, but fears rejection too much to actually gather up the courage and walk over and talk to them. Leonard has always been cautious, somewhat paranoid. He always wishes he could just throw caution to the wind and do something spontaneous, but that would be severely out of character. Instead, he sits alone hopelessly dreaming of adventures that he knows will ever happen.
Leo keeps to himself for the most part and hardly ever talks. When he does, his voice is barely above a whisper. He's suspicious of everyone, and always feels he's being watched. He walks around campus with his eyes on the floor, and his shoulders heavy with an unseen burden. His bottom lip quivers every now and then when he's alone and thinking. Sometimes he cries, but his tears have almost completely run dry at this point. He has the nasty habit of writing down all his fears and every ounce of guilt he has ever felt. Leo tries to hide all written-down thoughts, but it's hard to hide that many stacks of paper. He thought about burning them, but he's too attached to part with them. Every now and then, someone finds them, and he has to try and pass it off as fiction.
Leonard has spent the rest of his fifteenth life and onward after Judas doing as much good as he can. He hopes it'll balance out all the bad that Judas caused. His conscience is so over-developed, he gets physically ill when he lies or steals. He tries to spend as much time alone as possible. He's ashamed of who he is, and if it weren't for reincarnation he'd kill himself.. again. Leo is a mixed bag. He fears going to Hell, but hates living his pathetic excuse for a life. His soul desperately reincarnates after each of his hangings so as to avoid Hell. In the end, Leo had given up on his chronic life-ending after his fourteenth suicide.
PRETTY BOY, PRETTY GIRL
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Mother: Anna Lee Kinnley, 48, Deceased
Father: Percival Kinnley, 51, Deceased
Siblings: None.
Other: None.
Pets: None.
Hometown: Riverdale, born and raised.
History: Leonard has gone through more than a little lives. After his infamous betrayal, Judas has thrown away his cursed thirty pieces of silver and hung himself. That was the first hanging of many. Leo went into a suicidal rampage. As soon as he was old enough, he'd wrap a noose around his neck and end it. Nothing had ever been there to tie him down to Earth. He had had several parents, all of them the same. They loved him, but he never loved them back. Now he looks back on that with shame, considering it a waste of a body. The only parents that had ever left an impact on him were his most recent set, Percival and Anna Lee. They died right before he entered his first year of high school. He hadn't cried, because he knew he deserved much worse. God was being merciful.
After fourteen suicides, Leonard, then under the name of David, manned up and actually lived one through. It was horrible. He saw just how cruel the world could be. He had been so absorbed in living the first five years of his other lives, so eager to re-learn how to tie a knot, that he had completely blocked out what was going on around him. The world had changed so much, but Leonard didn't complain. After all, he deserved much worse. Only recently did he notice the faint scars around his neck that his suicidal rampage inflicted. The wounds so deep they actually touched his soul, passing on from body to body.
Percival and Anna Lee had made him go to church, something he dreaded over every week. It's not that he hated going to church, but in every service he wept like a baby. He actually loved going to church, and loved his parents for making him go. He was too scared to go on his own free will. After their deaths, he kept far away from the church, always wishing he'd gather up the courage and sit down in one of those uncomfortable pews, just once. Now he spends all his time roaming the campus by himself, or locked in his dorm reading books he's already read or writing on pieces of loose paper that he'll most likely stash in his sad excuse for a hiding place.
I AM WHO I AM
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Name/Alias:Pancake McCoy..Uh, I mean.. August.
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Age: 15
Time Zone: Western US
Post Sample: ..No one likes this part..
Judas' hand burned. Those small silver coins felt heavier than normal. The normal excitement he got from handling money felt dull and flat. What had happened.. ? There was no satisfaction or swell of pride. Instead, there was something very subtle hidden in the depths of his chest. What was it.. ? It was disgust. As soon as it had been discovered, it spread quickly, like an infectious disease. With a wild shout, he tossed those coins as far as he could manage. They fell on the uneven stones with a small musical clatter. It didn't sound like music to him, not anymore. It sounded tainted and wrong. The clatter kept repeating itself, though the coins ceased moving. It was a constant reminder of what he had done. What had he done.. ? The seriousness of what he had really done finally donned on him. He had betrayed the one man that actually saw something in him, and Judas had taken that all for granted. Now that it was gone, he felt the empty space where it had been. He had indirectly killed the man he had looked up to, followed, worshiped. And for what? A few piece of cruddy silver. Hot tears rolled down his face. Judas closed his eyes as tight as possible, but the tears persisted. His clenched fists loosened, and he wept without shame. He had to set it straight. In a rush, Judas picked up the coins, reluctantly. They made his skin crawl. It was the first time money had ever made him feel that way. He was going to make everything right. He ran back to the chief priests, and in a flurry of pants and pleas, he begged them to take it back. They did, eagerly. He watched their faces, waiting for that feeling of disgust to creep it's way into their expressions, but all he saw was a greedy gleam in their eyes. A gleam his eyes had previously had. From there, the self-loathing started. That look they had, it was revolting. Had he really looked like that.. ? His stomach began to churn, and he left unnoticed. Judas didn't know what he had expected, but guilt wasn't it. He had returned the money. So why did he still feel disgusted? His eyes gleamed over and widened slightly as he stared at nothing. Judas realized at that moment that he'd always feel this way. He could never escape this haunting feeling. The tears began their slow decent, and his feet moved without thinking. He was heading to the gallows. The life he possesed was nothing but a half-life, and that was no way to live.- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
application format by dante/dante in ze pot. lyrics from 'wreak havoc' by angelspit. nothing will chase you down if you remove the credits, but I'd rather you not. that is all.
